my undisclosed desire

Nineteen. Taurus. Full time student. Intense desires to travel the world. Family is everything to me.

People make me laugh

I find it so interesting and funny as to how different people deal with their past and emotions so dramatically differently. Some people will try to hold onto their past with every breath and yet they attempt to convince themselves that they do not. Then other people can completely let go of their past in order to love and live happily. Two completely polar opposites which when mixed together can create an extremely interesting and hilarious series of events. In some cases, for example; past relationships, these personalities can really clash. In some instances both can move on either in denial and just never really letting go or bickering towards one another to make themselves feel like the more important and possessive person. A feeling of ownership and empowerment can be so critical for some people. The most comical case to watch unfold is definately one where you have the two polar opposites. After months of separation and both partners moving on to find new relationships, one finds themselves continuing to bicker towards their ex by contacting them all the time, attempting to verbally beat them down, to use sarcastic remarks to seem clever and higher than the other and to continue to try to prove to them that they are the reasons for your mistakes and failures, trust and closeness issues and that overall, basically, they are now the reason as to why you are so monumentally messed up. However, the other continues to ignore the attempts because honestly, they just could not give a shit.

People who are in these situations make their lives revolve around it. For something so small and insignificant in the scheme of things these people with issues need to grow up and move on. I’ve known too many people who have had these issues and it destroys them.

To me, I find watching this ridiculous display of events unfold is simply comical. Like a mouse running in the little wheel.. No matter how hard you try, you are getting absolutely no where.

Last night was crystal castles. I had such a good time and met up with Audrey who I haven’t seen in months. It was good spending some time with a girl.. I haven’t really hung out with a girl in a long time.
Rob was front and centre. He went in with a normal t-shirt.. And when he came out, from all the sweat it had turned into a tall-T haha. When we got home we dropped onto the couch and watches teen cribs. Some of the houses those kids have are insane.
Before bed we watched an episode of mad men series 1 in bed. I was given series 4 for Christmas but rob wants to watch it from the start. He really likes it which I’m so glad about. It’s the best series. I wish I had been born in their era. The glamour, the fashion, the manners.. If you have never seen or heard about mad men.. I greatly recommend it.

It’s new years eve and I feel like horrible. My tummy hurts and I just feel like I need to have a spew. BOO!!!